There were lots of studies and research about depression and one of this is PDD (Postpartum Depression) which commonly experience by women specifically those who went from giving birth. I myself, fighting for it too so you’re not alone “with this fight”. I saw some Facebook post commonly on moms community that most of them who gave birth experience it and makes me feel so sad that somehow I can relate to them.
I gave birth on my daughter last year, she’s currently 5 months old at the moment and she was really amazing. I came to the point of my life that I was almost want to give up. Sometimes I wish that “Dreamland” will be true to escape from reality (sounds crazy right?). I have an amazing husband by the way. He was very supportive of every decision I made. He also said we’re “team” so we need to this together. But I know that he’s a human too, sometimes he also gets stress out, exhausted and sometimes we throw a fight and I think that is normal in a marriage.
Some people may not understand us. They think that being depressed was just our lame excuses not be happy. They cannot understand the fact that PDD was real and it was a hard fight especially when no one believes you.
Sometimes I feel so sad without any reason. I get anxious and angry in just one click and sometimes become very overwhelmed. I easily got irritated for so many things. Everything was so sad and black despite having a little angel at your side. For some moment I felt so worried and I don’t know why and I may sound crazy for you. There was a time that I almost lose my control.
It was hard, really hard to explain yourself because sometimes when you tell them they will just laugh at you and thinks that it was all your excuses. So most of the time you just wanna stay silence and keep it to yourself (shame on them).
But staying with your kids and receiving so much love from them makes us realize that life has so much to offer. So don’t give up, life must go on. There’s a saying “it was only for today, there’s always a tomorrow”. Keep fighting Mama, think of those little fingers touching your face and those kisses that can wash your tears away. Your children have so much love for you more than you can imagine. They have a “Big Heart” in those little bodies.
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